I Didn't Believe in Energy Healing...Until It Changed Everything

When I first made my Instagram I was still working as a nurse and I was mainly a wellness and food blogger. I shared a lot about my eating disorder recovery journey, my life, recipes, etc. It may be how some of you found me (and if you are still here from that time, damn I love you).

During the first few years of my ED, I definitely would not say I was spiritual. However, I was curious.

I saw people using tarot cards or talk about astrology and I definitely didn’t reject it, but I also didn’t understand it. When I got deeper into my disorder, I definitely took my curiosity to the next level and actually went and bought my own tarot cards and started playing around with giving myself readings. I bought books by spiritual authors. I started picking up crystals here and there. These things felt like tools to connect me deeper to myself and that’s what I was desperately craving because I think subconsciously I was ready to recover from my ED even though my mind was saying the opposite.

However, it wasn’t until I got sick that I really dove deep into spirituality and had what most people would call a spiritual awakening. I was diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses — breast implant illness, SIBO, candida, lyme disease & lyme co-infections, mold illness, the list goes on (hello dark night of the soul!!!) — and I really needed something to believe in. I needed to believe that this wasn’t happening to me, but that somehow, some way this was happening for me.

I have my bachelors in nursing though, so I still believed that it was going to be the doctors, functional medicine practitioners, supplements, detoxes, etc. that was going to heal me. I was primarily focused on spending most of my time and energy (and money) on those things and I did that for years. I spent thousands of dollars on protocols, supplements, detoxes over and over and over again and while this stuff did help, it wasn’t moving the needle as much as I wanted it to.

I was like “what is wrong with me?! why won’t my body just heal already?!” It was extremely frustrating and agonizing and infuriating, but the thing I failed to realize is that my body was still full of dis-ease because of the amount of repressed emotions and trauma I was holding onto.

By mere coincidence I was at my acupuncturist’s office getting a session done and I was telling her how frustrated I was about spending all of this time, energy, effort, and money, only to still feel like absolute shit.

She then told me about this woman that she goes to that she absolutely loves and that has helped her heal 10 years worth of therapy in just a couple of sessions. She said “you should go to her, I’ll give you her number,” and I was like great, yes, ok I will literally try anything thinking that this woman she was referring me to was a therapist.

Day of the session comes and I go to this woman’s apartment and I walk in and immediately I knew that this wasn’t therapy, but I was open to trying whatever it was that was about to happen.

We spent that hour and a half talking, shining all of the light in the Universe into my abdominal region where I was having a lot of physical symptoms, healing my inner child and ED version of self, forgiving myself and others and I left that session being like “wow, I don’t know what just happened but that felt fcking amazing.”

I go home and that night, that same exact night, I got my period back for the first time in EIGHT years (and I haven’t lost it since). To say I was DUMBFOUNDED is the least. I couldn’t believe it.

I had to know more about energy healing and eventually I became attuned to Reiki.

After I got attuned to Reiki my life opened up in ways I could have never imagined. I originally wanted to get attuned to Reiki for myself and my own healing journey. I was like “if this brough my period back, what else can it do?!” So, I really just wanted it for me, I had no intentions of creating a business in healing.

After becoming attuned I showed up to my self practice every single day. During my sessions I would cry, scream into a pillow, release so many stored emotions, move through big and little traumas, and anchor in new, empowering beliefs. And day by day I could see myself getting better and better.

My symptoms started falling away, my inflammation was going down, my hormones were balancing, my cortisol was lowering, my bloating was less intense. It was seriously crazy. It felt like magic, especially after YEARS of trying everything.

So I kept going. I kept showing up to my daily practice and then my confidence started increasing, my self worth started increasing, I got over the fear of being seen, and my creativity started flowing. I felt like I was creating new beliefs about myself and what was possible for my life and eventually I knew I needed to share this with others so I started taking clients and was having massive success within my sessions.

So I kept going. I kept showing up to my daily practice and I started attracting more and more clients, I started making more money, I started creating programs and having $14k launches and then $40k launches and my client testimonials were unbelievable stories of transformation.

Once you truly understand that everything is energy— the game changes (or should I say how you play the game (of life) changes).

It’s like this invisible shift where you realize that you’re not just reacting to life, you’re creating it. That’s what Reiki has become for me—an intentional, sacred tool that not only brings healing but also helps me grow into the version of myself I used to only dream about.

I used to think self-growth was about hustle. About constantly striving, fixing, and pushing myself into the next version of “better.” But Reiki softened that. It whispered to me that healing and growth don’t have to be loud or exhausting—they can be gentle, consistent, and intentional.

Each time I place my hands on my heart, my solar plexus, or wherever I feel called, it’s a moment of reclaiming my energy, my peace, my power. And over time, those small moments of intention started to stack up. I became less anxious. More grounded. Clearer about what I wanted—not from a place of lack, but from a place of deep knowing that I was already whole.

That’s the thing about Reiki—it’s not just a healing modality; it’s an energetic conversation with yourself and the Universe. A way of saying, “I am open. I am ready. I trust.” And when you approach life from that space, you start to notice how things shift. Opportunities flow, relationships deepen, and your manifestations seem to land with a little more ease because your nervous system now has the capacity to hold them.

I never expected that learning how to channel Reiki would also teach me how to channel my own power—to create, to call in, and to trust that the life I desire isn’t some far-off fantasy. It’s something I’m actively co-creating, one intentional moment at a time.

I went from feeling stuck, depressed, purposeless, sick, and broke (I’m talking frequently in the negatives in my bank account) to feeling lit up from within, happier and more alive than ever, finally healing my body, more abundant than I ever thought I could be and feeling so deeply in my purpose.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that healing and manifestation are two sides of the same coin. The more I clear what isn’t mine, the more space I create for what is. (Read this blog on how reiki is a cheat code to manifestation) Reiki just happens to be the most beautiful, supportive tool I’ve found to make that process feel like love, not labor.

And the best part? You don’t have to be perfect, spiritual, or even fully healed to start using energy intentionally. You just have to be open. And that openness... that’s where the magic happens.

If you’re feeling called to explore this path, OPEN: Reiki I & II Attunement & Certification Program is where your journey can begin. It’s not just about learning to heal yourself and others—it’s about awakening to your own energy, your own power, and the infinite possibilities that come when you say yes to yourself. I’d be honored to guide you through that sacred initiation.

Our next group round of OPEN begins 3/3 and we would love to see you there. If you are reading this after we have already begun I also take students through the program 1:1 or you can wait till the next group round.

If you have any questions feel free to leave a comment or send a DM here or on Instagram (@its_nicolettemarie).

(P.S: major shifts, quantum jumping, landing your manifestations can happen in just one minute, with one click, one decision. you have nothing to lose and everything to gain)

Love,

Nikki xoxo